Tears by MNH {OVER PART II}

Title: Tears

Author: Midori no Hime

Description: Second chapter of Over, in Anna Kyouyama's point of view.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything recognizable here! ^3^ (Specifically SK and the song Tears! ^^.)

Tears


{Over Part II}

~o~

The white starlight, the black darkness
is pushing me away from far

~o~

Anna's POV

It's raining quite heavily tonight. I don't know if the heavens are shedding tears for me, for my dilemma. I am about to be married to him. I should be happy, right? But what I feel right now is far from that. I feel empty, void. I stared at the mobile phone on my bed, as if staring at it would nudge that person to call me. But that would be impossible. He's probably with her. He said that he'll stay there tonight, saying that his grandfather told him to stay for the night. I snorted at that thought. Who is he kidding? For sure it's Tamao. It has always been her. His "best friend".

FLASHBACK

"Moshi moshi."

"Yoh! Where are you?" I asked him, feeling restless and excited.

"Uh, Anna, hi. Why?" His voice sounded hesitant.

"Oh, just wanted to ask." I said. I was pretty curious what he had been doing these past few days. He always gives excuses whenever I ask him to accompany me. Is he avoiding me? That horrifying thought entered my mind. I just needed to be sure.

"Well, I am here at grandpa's. He is asking me a favor so I won't be able to come over tonight." He paused for a second and continued "Maybe you can ask onii-chan to go there. He'd be willing."

His pushing me away again. I know that he does not want me the way I want him but can't we even just continue being friends? I heard someone talking at the background.

Yoh, dinners read! The voice said. "Oh just a moment, Anna." He called out to the girl and told her that he'll come. "Anna, I need to go."

"But Yoh…" he chuckled.

"Don't worry. I'll be there tomorrow at your wedding I promise I'll play. Okay? I have to go now. Grandpa said dinner's ready. I'll call you back later, kay? Ja!" the line went dead.

END OF FLASHBACK

Maybe grandfather is not really there. Maybe, it's just Tamao and him. He could just say he wanted to stay there because of her. Why use his grandpa as an excuse. And he even said he will call me back but it's almost past midnight but he had not called yet.

The phone's backlight started to blink. Someone's calling. My heart beat fast. I grabbed the phone and answered cheerfully. "Yoh!" There was no answer. "Hello?"

"Why are you still awake?" Oh, it's not Yoh. I felt my heart sank with the hope of hearing his voice.

"Hao." I replied. "Uhm, I couldn't sleep."

"Are you nervous?" I stayed quiet. "Well, you have to sleep now, it's our wedding tomorrow. You need your beauty rest, right?"

"Okay. I am going to sleep now. Thank you, Hao."

"Sure thing, sweetie. Good night." And the line went dead.

Instead of going to sleep, I still lay awake on my bed, thinking if I made the right decision. Is it really okay to marry Hao? Will I eventually learn to love him? I know I should not ponder anymore since all is set now. There's no turning back anymore…

AaAaA

"Anna!" the young lady wearing a wedding dress looked up and stared at the mirror. She saw her blue haired friend enter the room on the reflection. "Gosh, you're so beautiful today!" Pilika exclaimed as she stared at the beautiful bride in front of her. Tamao followed inside the room.

"Best wishes Miss Anna," she said. "You really looked great today." I can hear the voice inside my head telling me that she really is happy to see that I am going to marry someone else and not her beloved Yoh.

"She should be; it's her wedding day." A green haired girl suddenly appeared out of nowhere.

I felt happy seeing the girls, right now. Although not that happy knowing that Tamao wanted this so much. "Thanks, girls, I really am nervous. I can't believe I am getting married today." I really am nervous and groping in the dark. I still am contemplating if I really have to do this. I know Hao told me that everything will be fine.

"Ha. Don't be. You look like a princess; every guy must be envious of your groom." Pilika tried to soothe my nerves. She sat beside me while the stylist worked on her hair.

"I just wish Yoh's already here," I mumbled incoherently, glancing out the window. "At least if he's here I won't get nervous this much."

"Yeah, he's always been the life of the gang. Yoh and Horo." Tamao said blushing. All of their friends know that she harbors some feelings for the young Asakura except the guy himself. Well, maybe he also knows it but is not saying anything. Or maybe, they are already together, in secret.

"Speaking of Yoh, He's your best friend too right?" Jun asked, walking towards the window. She opened it and let some air in. "Ugh, so hot."

Yeah that's right. He only sees me as his best friend and nothing else. "We've been best friends since forever. He's a childhood friend."

"Yeah. I remember when we were younger, your parents were always on a business trip so they usually leave you at the Asakuras."

"Well, then, you have to say thank you to your parents. If they did not leave you to the Asakuras, you won't be with your groom today."

Maybe, they should've asked me to come with them instead. In that case, there would be a chance that I won't be hurting this much.

"Yeah, Pilika's right. Haha." Jun agreed cheerfully at their blue headed friend.

"Oh, do shut up please." I groaned, but all of a sudden, the door opened, revealing a spiky brown-haired guy. He's wearing a white tuxedo. My heart skipped a beat, seeing his goofy smile.

"Hi ladies," he said. He offered the flowers to me and smiled. "For you."

~o~

When I look at you with my smile
I always become farther apart

~o~

I blushed and took the flowers from him. I can't stop myself from smelling the glorious flowers and smile. After a moment, "Arigato, Yoh. I have been waiting here for you. I thought you'll sleep here?"

"Uhm, well, I had an important meeting to attend to yesterday. I went home almost past midnight so I did not have the time to go here and ruin your beauty sleep." He smiled his goofy grin at me; I just can't help but smile in return although all I wanted to do is all but that. I am hurting. I want to hug him and ask him to take me away. But I don't know something is telling me that probably he would refuse. He has Tamao, anyways.

~o~

When I call you, when I look for you
Come to me as the wind
Hug me in secret
So I can feel you
You are always next to me

~o~

"Huh, I did not get to sleep anyway. I am so nervous. It's lucky that Aime here has lots of Concealer to spare or I would look like a sleepless bride today."

He laughed at my joke; it's wonderful to hear his laugh. "Well, even if you have black bags under your eyes, you are still beautiful, you know." He said not tearing his gaze from me.

It's like all the people in the world didn't matter anymore. It certainly felt that the only people in the room are just the two of us. The unspoken words inside me threatening to spill out. We didn't realize that we still have company until Jun said that they are going to get some drinks. I told her to get Yoh a drink, too, breaking the eye contact between him and me.

The three girls went out of the room while the two of us sat in silence. I try to put all my attention to the stylist asking her questions about her life. I can feel his eyes boring on me, and I feel like I am going to melt by the time I set my gaze on him.

I stole a glance at him but he seems to be thinking of something else while staring at me. He has this serious and thoughtful expression on his face. What are you thinking about, Yoh? Is your mind somewhere a certain pink haired girl is right now? Why are you still here? But then it doesn't matter anymore. All I know is that whenever you're around me, I feel so happy that I don't feel the pain I am suffering right now. Very Ironic, right? You are the reason why I feel this way yet, just your mere presence puts all those pain away.

FLASHBACK

"Hao," I whispered in protest, his face leaning closer and closer. "Hao please."

Hao stopped and glared at her. "Fine. Well, if that's how you want it to be. Maybe, I'll just look for another woman who'll be able to satisfy me."

Tears ran down my cheeks. I don't even want to be his fiancé, yet, seeing Yoh with her really wounded my ego. We are still in that very awkward position when someone stopped short on the doorway.

It was Yoh.

"Uhm. Sorry, I didn't know you're here." He said looking at me and then to Hao and then back at me. His eyes showing concern when he saw me crying. He would have gone to me, I know he would, but Hao also glared at him, telling him with his eyes to back off. "I'll go ahead."

I stared at his retreating form, still crying. "Don't waste your time on my brother. He will never love you. He knows you're mine. And aside from that, you know that he only see you as a sister."

I don't know what has gotten into me but after hearing those haughty words from Hao, I suddenly felt the urge to prove him wrong.

I decided to tell Yoh what I feel for him. I wanted him to know that's it's him whom I love so I looked for him, running up and about the house, leaving Hao behind.

It felt like someone poured a bucket full of iced water on me as I saw him outside. Tamao caught in a dead end on a tree, Yoh's arms outstretched at the either side of her, fist balled into fists. I felt my heart shattered to pieces, crashed. I ran away, I didn't want to see what he'll do next. I don't even want to think of it. I found myself inside my sanctuary, crying my heart out.

~o~

The blue sky has dyed you.
Before you find out about my love
Don't feel bad for me, if you understand my tears
You will be able to laugh too

~o~

"Anna?" I heard a voice asked me, he silently tiptoed through the darkness of the room. "Why are you crying? He asked.

I shook my head gently, and said "It's nothing Yoh." I smiled, reassuring him that it really is nothing, and wiped the tears. "Something just got in my eyes. It hurts so much."

I am glad he didn't push anymore. Instead, he sat down beside me and looked at me, reaching out to touch my face. "Really? Hmmm. Let me see." He said.

"No, Yoh, It's fine now." I refused to let him see how vulnerable I am right now. I don't want him to see that I really am crying. But he insisted.

"Now, now. Let me see. I'll blow it out of your eyes. Come here." He motioned for me to come near him, which I obeyed. There's no point in arguing with this headstrong man. He did what he said he would do and after a short while, he grinned down at me and whispered, "All gone now, right?" I nodded, smiling at him. "Come, I'll show you something."

He led me out of the house and we both ran out into the forest when Hao and their family entered my mind. "Hey, it's already late. I think we should not go out anymore." I whispered.

"There is something I want you to see. It will only be there tonight."

"But the family and Hao and…"

"Just a few minutes okay?" he looked at me expectantly. I couldn't find the heart to say no.

"Okay."

~o~

When I call you, when I find you
Come to me as the wind
Hug me in secret
So I can feel you
You are always next to me

~o~

It was so beautiful. The scene was so captivating and breathtaking. I felt like staying here forever, away from all the things eating me alive. I wanted to run away from everything, with this man I am with. "It's beautiful." I murmured, words so soft like it's just for my ears alone.

But then I realized that Yoh had not uttered a word since we came here so I called out to him. "Yoh?" he looked at me with a surprised look. "Is something wrong? You're so quiet."

He scratched the back of his head in embarrassment. "Sorry, I was thinking …"

But I didn't hear the rest of his words for someone arrived and ruined our moment together.

"Hey guys!

~o~

Love~ Like my song is my wind forever

Do you hear it too?

You leave so many memories

I only think about you

~o~

"You did not even ask me to join you. I'm hurt!"

"Ah… Hao, sorry. We thought you're already asleep."

"He. It's okay. It's beautiful. ne? Anna? We used to go here when we were young. Yoh, would always be here when he's feeling down."

"Uhm… I do not know that there's something that would make Yoh feel down." I teased him.

"Ha. Yeah. I thought so too. Well, anyway, Anna, you wanna go watch…"

END OF FLASHBACK

"Anna," I was pulled out of my reverie when Jun called my name. "Come on gorgeous. We need to go now," she said, tugging me along. My eyes searched for Yoh but he is still on his la la land.

"Yoh! We'll wait for you at the church!" Jun shouted. "Oi! Horo. Go break your friend's daydreaming. He shouldn't be late, he's going to play for Anna's wedding."

"Yeah I will." He said, saluting his hands. "I'll go right away, ma'am."

"Good, we'll be waiting."

AaAaA

"Here he is," I exclaimed. "Why are you so late? Many people were asking for. They want to hear you play the piano."

"Gomen, ojii-san asked me to go to Izumo for a moment. I just got back from there. I drove really fast to just be here on time."

"Oh," was all I could muster to say. "Sorry. I did not know." He smiled at me, silently saying that all is well. If you were him, if only you were the one who proposed to me that night…

FLASHBACK

I don't know where he's leading me but I still followed, my heart hammering away inside me. I can't make it stop. We came to a remote part of the place and he let go of my hand.

He turned around with his eyes locked on mine. "Anna, I've been meaning to tell you this. I only have the courage now so I came here to a—"

"Hi, Yoh! Did you see Anna? I need to tell her something" He moved his gaze towards where the voice is coming.

"She's…" I know he's about to say something. I was suddenly afraid of what he will say. Will he ask my advice about Tamao? Will he tell me that he's planning to ask her out or maybe to marry her? Or maybe, he really just wanted me here for Hao.

"There you are!" Hao said enthusiastically. "I've been looking for you from the moment I arrived." He turned to face me and knelt down. "I've been in love with you for so long and I want you to finally know my feelings for you. I love you, Anna. Will, you marry me?"

END OF FLASHBACK

"Anna?"

"Nothing," I beamed at him, showing how happy I am that I am going to get married today. I can't show him how I truly feel. Being the good friend that he is, I know he'll d something to stop me from doing this. Maybe, even ask me o marry him if he knew that I am in love with him. He is such a kind hearted person, not wanting to see anyone hurting.

He nodded and walked forward towards the altar. I saw him sat down at the piano bench and started to play my favorite song. It took all my strength not to run to him and tell him not let me marry Hao. I feel hot tears falling down my cheeks. Maybe the people around me would see it as tears of joy for this happy day.

But it's not. I stopped at the end of the aisle.

~o~

When I call you, when I find you
Come back to me as the rain
Whisper to me under the umbrella.
I loved you more
So I am hurting more

~o~

"Today, Anna Kyouyama, join my life to yours, not merely as your husband, but as your friend, your lover, and your confidant. Let me be the shoulder you lean on, the rock on which you rest, the companion of your life. With you I will walk my path from this day forward." Hao slid the ring on my finger. He met my eyes after and kissed my hand.

I feel so happy, although it's not because I am being married to Hao but because I know that Yoh would eventually be happy with Tamao. And so I continued to say my vows. "Where there has been cold, you have brought warmth; where my life was dark, you have brought light. Hao Asakura, I pledge before this assembled company to be your wife from this day forward. Let us make of our two lives, one life, and let us always honor and respect each other."

I tried to think that it is Yoh I am marrying, proclaiming my undying love for him. But the question is still there…

~o~

How can I convey it to you
My heart that really loved you

~o~

I looked out of the window of the bridal car to have the last chance to see his smile. I waved to the people who witnessed "my wedding" but my eyes darted to the young man wearing the white Tuxedo. With one last glance at him, I whispered to the wind, "I love you…" hoping that it would reach his ears…

AaAaA

A/N: After such a long time, I finally had the time to write the second part of Over. I decided to take majrocks suggestion to use the song Tears. So thank you, thank you to majrocks. I hope you all enjoyed this story.

Oh, and well, try to check out my other stories I posted the fifth installment of my first ever story Let's Make This Last and completed my beloved Goodbye. Ha! I am so happy!

As you can see, I still have not changed the status of Over because, as you know I always change my mind when it comes to writing so I decided to also put Hao's POV, too. I already have a song that I'll use so I think if I feel hyped up to write a story today or the following days, I will be able to post it by Thursday.

I am not sure yet, for I have a very fickle mind. See yah! ^3^