Confusion by MNH

Confusion
~MNH

I. Every single day
I am wondering.
Every moment here
I am getting more confused.

II. Did I really love you?
Do I still have feelings for you?
Is it true or is it just a simple crush?
Will it fade away or will it last?

Refrain:

Everyday I ask myself,
If I do not love you
Why is it that
I can't look straight into your eyes?
Why does my heart beat so fast?

Chorus:

I know it's crazy,
I know I will just hurt myself.
But how, tell me how?
How can I make myself believe
You're not in my heart,
When every corner of it
Reeks of evidence.
Evidence named you.

III. We were once friends
But now? What?
I feel like an alien,
Alien to you.
You always made me feel
That I don’t belong here.

IV. You talked to everyone but me.
You smile and greet them
With such a happy face.
Did you even consider my existence?
I don’t feel it. I can’t feel it.

Refrain:

Everyday I ask myself,
If I do not love you
Why is it that
I can't look straight into your eyes?
Why does my heart beat so fast?

Chorus:

I know it's crazy,
I know I will just hurt myself.
But how, tell me how?
How can I make myself believe
You're not in my heart,
When every corner of it
Reeks of evidence,
Evidence named you.

Coda:

It’s confusing…
It’s upsetting…
I want to forget you
To be able to act normal
Around you.
I am always in a daze.
Heads bow down,
Eyes trying to be blind,
Ears trying to be deaf.
While my heart shouts
‘Hey! I am here
And I love you still…’