Even Just A Friend by MNH

Even Just a Friend

~MNH

I kept thinking,

What could have happened

If I did not go.

I kept dreaming,

Dreaming I did not do anything

To make you stay away.

I know you tried to be a friend

I know you tried to reach out

To me once again

How foolish I am

To push you away

Now I'm all alone

Not even just a friend.

I don’t know what you think of me anymore.

I don’t know if you don’t see me the way you think of me before.

But I do wish, I silently wish

To even just be a friend.

I'll be happy, I should be happy just to be a friend.

I know you tried to be a friend

I know you tried to reach out

To me once again

How foolish I am

To push you away

Now I'm all alone

Not even just a friend.

I can’t tell you how much it hurts

Every time you pass by without saying a word.

You don’t know how much my heart breaks into pieces

Hearing you talk about her

Hearing your friends talk about you nonchalantly.

I know you tried to be a friend

I know you tried to reach out

To me once again

How foolish I am

To push you away

Now I'm all alone

Not even just a friend.

It's so hard to live in a world where you exist,

It's a slap on my face to realize the reason why

I couldn't even be a friend.

I wasted all my chances.

I wasted all of it

I hate myself for acting like that

I'll hate myself forever

For not even being just a friend.

Even just a friend.

I know you tried to be a friend

I know you tried to reach out

To me once again

How foolish I am

To push you away

Now I'm all alone

Not even just a friend.