Over
Part IV
[b]Distance[/b]
[i]by: midorinohime[/i]
Anna's POV
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I'm driving down the highway
Cold and dark, dead
(It's deceiving) It's deceiving
And miles and miles pass by
And I'm alone
My eyes feel like they're bleeding
But I'm just crying
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In the middle of this deserted road, I am all alone crying. If there were people passing by, they would've thought I am crazy. They would've pitied me. And that is what I am feeling right now. I pity myself for being such a nut-head. For not confirming Yoh's feelings for me. But no, I decided to trust Hao. I decided to trust myself. What my mind was saying. And that,yes, that is the biggest mistake I have ever done.
"Hao..." I gritted my teeth. I felt so angry that he lied to me. He told me that Yoh does not love me. That he likes Tamao. I trusted him. I thought he's helping me forget Yoh but he is so selfish. He chose to live in his own lie to have me than to make me live mine and be happy for me and his brother. What should I do now? I am married to him. And Yoh would never ever agree to have me. He's too good to even hurt his brother.
He knows that Hao loves me and he would never try to take me away from him.
But would he? If I tell him that Hao lied to me? Should I tell him? Tch. How could I do that. I would ruin their relationship. I couldn't. I must not.
But I won't live with Hao. I want divorce. I don't want to see him right now.
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Is this what I ask for?
Is this what I ask for?
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I wiped the tears on my face. I'll call Pirika. But oh, I don't have my phone with me. I looked around me and squinted my eyes. It's raining so heavily. My wedding dress's making it hard for me to move and run. I am all soaked up. I tore the veil off my head and angrily threw it. I continued to walk and run and felt so relieved to see a phone booth just a few blocks away.
Good thing I know Pirika's number. I dialed the number and waited for her to pick the phone up. Pirika please answer the call...please...please...
"Hello?"
"Piri!"
"Uh, who's this?"
"A-nna..." my voice sounded so broken.
"Anna? oh my! Anna.. what happened?! Where's Hao?"
"C-can y-ou p-please p-pick me up h-ere?"
"Where are you?"
"I-I d-on't k-know, w-ait I'll l-ook f-for a l-andmark."
I glanced and try to see my surroundings amidst the heavy rain. "I a-am n-near t-the bus s-station. Just a-cross a f-family r-restaurant."
"What's the name of the restaurant?"
"M-imiu..."
"Okay, I am on my way." she said. I heard her call out to their mom and say that's she's going out. "Wait a minute Anna. Stay on the line." She opened her car's door and shut it with a loud bang.
"Tell me what happened."
"L-later..." then the line was cut off.
"Miss Anna," I turned just in time to see Hao's driver. He bowed. "Master Hao asked me to give this to you." he said holding out a small piece of paper.
"W-hat's t-that?" I asked. Though i pretty much know what the paper is saying. "G-ive t-that b-back to y-our m-master." I weakly pushed him out of the way and craned my neck to see Pirika's car. Not a car in sight.
I felt the driver put his coat over me. "Use this Miss."
I accepted it for I really feel like my whole body is already freezing. "Please stay inside the booth Miss." I gladly obliged.
After a few minutes Pirika finally arrived.
"Where's Anna?!" she screamed at the driver, holding a big umbrella.
"She's inside ma'am." Pirika ran towards me and hugged me.
"Oh Anna... what happened?" I just cried and hugged her back.
"Come on. Let's get you out of that wet dress." then she turned to the driver. "Tell your master that he will be receiving a call from me."
The old man nodded and bowed as they passed by him.
When we are already inside the car. i feel much better. I don't feel that cold anymore.
"So tell me what happened."
"He lied to me Pirika... He told me Yoh loves someone else. He told me that Yoh would never love me back."
"Huh? What has Yoh got to do with this? I thought you and Hao..."
"I love Yoh Pirika but Hao told me that he already has Tamao and that he only see me as a sister..." I covered my face and started crying again. "I am so stupid to believe him. I should've asked Yoh... I should have been braver..."
"How did you know that he lied?"
"He told me awhile ago... He admitted it... He must've felt guilty or maybe he thought that I would forgive him for we are already married..."
Pirika kept her eyes on the road but held Anna's left hand once in awhile as a way to comfort her.
"You'll get through this, Anna..."
AaAaA
"Mom! We're home!" Prika announced. "Anna, go to my room and change your clothes. You might catch a cold. Go..." she pushed her towards the staircase...
"Pirika... oh dear... Horo called... something bad happened..."
"Why?"
"He said Hao's in the hospital..."
AaAaA
Anna's POVI heard someone knock on the door. "Anna..." It's pirika. "Anna..."
I opened the door and saw my friend's pale face.
"Anna... Hao's in the emergency room. He had been in an accident..."
"What?" I gasped. I know I am really angry at him right now, but I didn't wish for this to happen...
"Let's get going. They are all there." She was about to drag me out of her room but I stopped her.
"Wait." I grabbed Hao's driver's coat and followed her.
The ride to the hospital was rather quiet. No one dared to speak. 'Please let him be fine...' Although i still feel so angry at him, Hao is still my friend and I really don't want anything bad happening to him.
I hugged the coat. As i looked down, I saw a small paper poking out of the coat. It was Hao's note. With shaking hand, I pulled it out of the pocket and silently read the note.
Anna,
If you are reading this, then probably you already left me. This is a last minute note I wrote before we went out of the church. I really am sorry for lying to you. I loved you so much. The envy I am feeling for my brother since we were little was stirred up because of you.
I guess you can call me selfish and all the name you want to call me. I deserve it for ruining your happiness. I was blinded by my love and jealousy towards you and my brother.
I was so sure that I would continue to shower you with love and make you forget about my brother. But when I saw how you cried while walking down the aisle... I realized what I did. I guess I really loved you so much.
So much that I am giving you a chance for your happiness...
I love you Anna... Take care of my brother... He loves you just as much...Hao
I felt hot tears beginning to fall again. Hao... He planned to.. Oh my God... What did I do?
We arrived at the hospital. There were so many patients here and there.
"Excuse me, where can we find the emergency room?" Pirika asked the nurse.
"Just walk straight this hallway and you'll see it rigt away."
"Thank you..."
It's my fault... It's my fault that he's in ER now. fighting for his life. It's my fault for not even hearing his explanation. It's my fault that he's dying now...
"Anna! Pirika!" Jun Tao exclaimed and ran towards us to hug us.
"We thought you were also... But why are you not with him?..."
"What happened Anna? Did you have an argument... Jeez You just got married"
I didn't know who's talking and who's not I just heard the words coming from them. I stayed silent. They would probably blame me for this...I sighed. "Yes we did."
Horo and the others were all silent. It would have been better if they shouted at me and blamed me and cursed me but they are all so silent. They looked at me but did not say anything...
I searched for Yoh and found him seated near the ER door, head bent down. Maybe he sensed that I am looking at him so he glanced up. "Yoh..." I murmured.
But he looked down again. Yoh, please... I did not wish for this. This is not what I asked for... don't... don't hate me... please...
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I hate myself when I'm away from you
I swear I'm sorry
Please don't hate me too
And I don't know if my heart will make It through
I swear I'm sorry
Please don't hate me too
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"Doc... How's my brother?" Yoh asked the doctor as soon as the door of the ER opened. "Will he be okay? Is he okay now?"
"We are not yet sure, young man. The surgery was a success but his condition is still unstable. We don't know when he's going to wake up."
Yoh slumped back down at the hospital bench. "I'll tell the staffs to transfer him to a private room." the doctor added. He bowed and talked to the nurse standing beside him, giving orders.
I sat down beside him. "Yoh..." I whispered. "Yoh... please... please talk to me..."
He stared at me. "You want to tell me something Anna?"
"I didn't know this would happen Yoh. I swear, I swear... Yoh..." I broke down in front of him. As much as I hated being so vulnerable in front of everyone... what's happening right now is just too much...
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Is this what I ask for?
Is this what I ask for?
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"Let's talk some other time Anna." He said, standing up and walking away. Pirika hugged me while the other girls patted my back.
"Anna.. let's go."
I don't know what to do anymore. I can feel the distance between us widening. I feel so hopeless. How could this happen now? And what will happen to Hao? I didn't ask for this.. I never asked for this... believe me...
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(Don't hate me)
Don't fail now
Hold on to hope
Cause I'm yours
I'm coming home to you soon
(I'm coming home)
Cause the road is very worn
And It's begging me to come back
(To You)
I hate myself when I'm away from you
I swear I'm sorry
(I'm sorry)
Please don't hate me too
(I'm coming home)
Don't hate me too
Please don't hate me too
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